Filed under: Blogging, Home Sweet Home, The H Word | Tags: housekeeping, lack of motivation
My apologies for my lengthy absence. At least I think it was lengthy. I was thinking about the blog recently and realizing that I’ve gotten pretty far away from my original purpose. I had a plan with this one – to give other bad housekeepers the comfort that comes in knowing that you are not alone. Now if I had miraculously changed and become the perfect little housewife, it would make sense that things would change, but things are more or less as they were when I started: messy. I have about a dozen different areas in my house that need a LOT of work right now and about an ounce of motivation to work on them. I am much more interested in reading, crafting or just lying around being lazy. And pregnancy doesn’t help this lack of motivation.
Anyway, I don’t have time right now for a long post as I have to pack up a baby gift, clear all the snow off my van, have sandwiches ready for Mike and drive the gift to the church when he comes home for lunch. I am going to a partylite party tonight so I won’t be able to make it to the baby shower happening at the church. I don’t plan to buy a single thing at the party, but the hostess is a good friend and I told her I’d be a body for her so she has enough people.
If I have a bit more time in the afternoon, I may write a bit more about the house then, but otherwise, it will probably be later in the week.
Oh, my poor blog, I’m sorry. I just can’t seem to find the motivation to write these days. Or the time. Crafting and feeling sick has taken up my time lately and I have neglected you.
I am eagerly awaiting the end of certain responsibilities in my real life and looking forward to simpler times. I am waiting to get a deep breath of figurative fresh air. I am holding off on dreaming much lately because I can’t stand the pain of waking and finding these dreams to be impossibilities.
I am lonely as of late – spending a lot of time at home, wishing for friends who are not here. Trying to keep busy with craft swaps and cyber-friends so that I don’t think much about my loneliness. I’ve been here before – it’s nothing new – but I never imagined it happening again. With each child, my heart becomes fuller but my life becomes more isolated.
I yearn for a vacation – a real one. I worry that the vacation we are planning will fall through for one reason or another. That money will be too tight, that we won’t have people to watch our children or that we will just let it slide like we have in the past. It has always been my goal to go away for a bit when expecting another baby and yet it’s never happened. Sometimes I question my motives – ask myself whether it’s okay to want this so much, just a week with Mike and no one else.
My enthusiasm for projects I’ve started has waned, but I must finish. I’m in two more craft swaps and then it will probably be in my best interest to stay out of any unless they are very small. It’s enjoyable at times and the chance to make a sort of friend does seem to make my quality of life somewhat better for a time. But when it comes down to it, it’s just more to get done in the day, more money to spend, more things to fill the space I don’t have.
So, dear journal of sorts (you know how I feel about the word blog), I’m sorry I’ve left you alone for so long, but I simply do not have inspiration as of late. I only have a sick stomach and an overwhelmed mind.
L.H.passed me the Kreativ Blogger Award. While the spelling of creative makes me feel a little like throwing up (I hate bad grammar and spelling, no matter how cute it’s supposed to be), I’ll play along. 
Any recipient of this award is asked to write a post listing 7 things they love and then pass the award on to 7 other bloggersso they can write a list and pass the award on as well. I’m going to wrack my brain for seven other bloggers to pass this to….but first, my list.
Seven Things I love
1. I love living in the north – while the winters are long, my favourite days are actually right in the middle of winter, when the sun is bright, the sky is blue and the trees are frosty. It’s absolutely beautiful.
2. I love the weirdness of my children. I’ve always been a little off my rocker (jk..but really not too far from the truth) so it’s fun to see my kids inherit the same sense of humour.
3. I love my Thursday morning ladies Bible study and the friends I have there, young and old. The chance to read the Bible together and study and discuss what we learn has been so valuable. The friends I’ve made have all meant so much to me since we started up almost two years ago. I miss the ones who have gone and enjoy the new ones who come along.
4. I love that Facebook has allowed me to stay connected to my friends and family back home and to share photos and stories with them so easily.
5. I love the smell of new babies. The feel of new babies, the look of new babies…etc. etc.
6. I love to eat. I love that God made so many flavours available to us and that everything doesn’t just ”taste like chicken”. I’m so thankful for my sense of taste. 
7. I love being creative. Whether that is through writing or creating arts or crafts, it’s one of my favourite parts of living.
And now, I pass this award on to:
1. Carly and
2. Cindy
L.H. took the only other blog I regularly read that isn’t a food blog. I thought I could scrounge up seven, but it’s just not going to happen. No telling if these girls will follow suit and write on this award. We’ll see….
